Diary: April 28th, 2019

Hi, this is Shire. Thank you very much for coming to my room today♪

It has been a week since my cat passed away last Saturday evening. I was looking at my cat’s empty, dead body and thinking about her all day long on the Easter Sunday. I guess I’ll never forget the day since everyone in the Christian community celebrates the day with joy and Spring happiness. I’m hoping that my cat would enjoy the taste of the beautiful celebration as well as the complete freedom from the physical world.

I’ve been living with her and another boy cat (who passed away 2 years ago) for more than 15 years. Living with cats has been pretty normal for me so that all my physical life including my plans for band tours, short trips and vacations have always been considered their safety as the first priority.

Since the last week, I’ve started re-organizing and cleaning my room. I did throw out many of cat-related goods including an old cat tower, carrying case, many toys, litter boxes, etc. It’s surprising how my room gets and keeps cleaner only after a week… no cat hair, no litter stuff, no cat nails, no vomiting remains on the floor.

I started planning for my short vacation trip (about 10 days) as well. Yes, I won’t need to worry about asking a cat-sitter anymore. I can stay away as long as I wish without worrying someone waiting for me at home anymore.

It is a big change. It may be bigger than what I am feeling right now.

So, I’ve been talking to my advisor a lot in Shamballa in order to keep the memories fresh since I am, in the physical world, soooo easy to forget things quickly. I guess I tend not to spend my sense energy to stabilize such moments/memories against physical remains.

Yesterday, I submit a request to transfer a new, available unit in my apartment community. I’m not sure how long it will take to find an available room, but this can be another big move forward in my physical life. Exciting.









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